Sweet Life in the City

I am not really sure how to begin this post. It has been a wild year so far and it looks like it will be a bit chaotic for a while. We are all experiencing big feelings these days. I realize that many have different opinions and suggestions and theories about what is going on in the world. My emotions and opinions have been all over the place this past week. Surprisingly for a highly anxious person, I have been mostly at peace. Oh don't get me wrong, I have shed some tears and I have been shaking with the fears of the unknown, but at the end of the day, I am trusting our Father. It would be foolish for me to try to figure out why this is all happening, so I am choosing to trust that there is a reason and a purpose for this madness and I am going to try my hardest to work on what the Lord is wanting me to learn through these uncertain days. So, on the subject of learning, my social media feeds have been filled with another fear that many of my friends and family are facing over thes...

We are now on day 5 of this school year. Thank you so much for praying for us (especially the kids) during this new school year. I am happy to report that things seem to be going well for all three kids. Sam has started to talk to a few kids, Emma seems to settling in nicely and getting to know people, and Chloe and I are learning the best way to navigate this homeschool thing. Last week was pretty rough on me. I spent a lot of time and energy last week wishing I could go back and make different decisions about where we found ourselves. Regretting and even considered trying to undo my choices. After the 10th text to my hubby he finally was like "okay you need to stop this, it's been two days" 😏. On Sunday our pastor preached on Jeremiah 29 and I was so convicted on how I had been acting. Jeremiah 29:11 is one of the most popular verses used. It is loved and quoted by so many because everyone loves the idea that God wants to prosper us, He wants to give us a future and a ...

We made it through day one back to school! I dropped Sam off at his school first and as I drove around to exit I cried and prayed that he would have a good day. I then drove a few minutes away to Emma's school, parked, and walked her up to the school. We were a few minutes early before the doors opened and there were like a million people waiting to get in. There was a girl standing in front of us who introduced herself to Emma and this was this girl's first time ever to attend a public school. There were not many parents waiting with their kids, so I left Emma right before the doors opened to let them in. I walked back to my car and just sat and cried for a few minutes. I headed home and Chloe and I dove right into our homeschool lessons. I felt kind of bad for her because I knew the other two would not be doing work on the first day, but there would not need to be all the introductory stuff that goes with the first day of school. I only planned a few things just to ease her i...

It has been awhile since I sat down and posted anything. I have sat down many times to write, but the words just didn't seem to come. As I am on the cusp of a new adventure I thought I would try to put into words what has been going on these last six months or so. It wasn't pretty, but I am so thankful for the Lord's mercy and Spirit to help us find our way back. I lost myself this past year. I found myself in a place that inside I felt blank. I had fallen asleep to the people  that are the most important to me. I didn't realize the depth of my neglect until I found myself standing in my child's room, tears flowing, listening to the struggle they had been facing for months, struggles that I had completely missed. God shook me awake that day in May. I am so glad He did. I know that it pretty heavy to write my first time blogging in months, but there is no other way to jump back into this.  Let me back up a bit. Everyone in our family had been dispersed to new places...

When I was a kid I really don't remember what I wanted to be when I grew up. I think I went through a stage of wanting to be a pediatrician, but realizing how long you had to be in school and all the other gross stuff that came with being a doctor I decided I did not want to be that. When I graduated high school and went to college, I really did not have a wide range of choices, so like most females at this college I entered the teacher education path. My sophomore year at school I felt strongly that the Lord was calling me to pursue a mission degree instead of a teaching degree. It would be in that new course of my life that I would get to know my future husband better, meet a couple who would impact my life more than I can even explain, and develop a love for people from all over the world. I would graduate with my missions degree and Jeremy and I planned to go to the mission field, France actually. We had big plans, God had other plans. Our lives would forever be changed with a ...

How? How in the world is today December 1st! We had a great Thanksgiving even though I have to honest that I was a little apprehensive as it was approaching. This was the first time I would not be celebrating a holiday in my childhood home and I was not sure how emotionally prepared I was for this new house. We left at 1:30 on Wednesday to head to Missouri. Jeremy did not have school, Samuel dismissed early and we always dismiss at 1:00 on Wednesdays, so we left from my school since it is already on the other city of downtown. The reality of not going "home" surfaced as we passed the exit we usually would take and Emma declared "well we would already be at Grandma's house if they still lived here". Nope, we still had like 6 hours to go 😡 We got to my parent's house in Missouri Wednesday night and the kids were super excited to explore their new house. The house is so pretty and it fits my mom personality perfectly and every room has her touch for making a h...

I feel a little bit guilty that I have not posted in a long time. I feel like I had taken everyone to this place of our new adventure and then I just left it there. That very first day of our new school seems like a lifetime ago. Several times throughout the last few months I have sat down to write, but for starters my exhaustion would always take over and my brain would pretty much be mush. We leave our house at 6:20 every morning and are usually home between 5:00 and 5:30 every night. The days are extremely long and the drive  has been less than kind to my body. By Friday afternoon  I certain my legs will never work again. The second reason is that it was just too hard to put into words all the emotions that I have been feeling. The first few months were really sad for me. It didn't make any sense. My school is amazing. The people I work with are amazing and the students are mostly amazing 😏. I just found myself wanting to go back to what I knew. I missed so many sweet face...