Thursday, August 18, 2011

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We are still without Internet at home, but I am going to attempt to blog again. I will try to add pictures once a week. We had a great summer but it went way too fast. We did have some sadness when my Granny Douglas passed away in July. The kids and I went to Missouri over the 4th of July. My parents and my sister were also there to visit. My Granny had not been doing well for a while so we all made the trip to see her. It had been 5 years since I had seen the Douglas clan. It was wonderful to see them all and it made me sad to think how much time had gone by since I had seen most of them. We always have a big family picnic on the 4th and after the picnic we had planned to have a Celebration of Life party for Granny. My cousin went to get her ready and it was evident that she had taken a turn for the worse. We knew her time on this earth was coming to an end. We were all thankful that so many of us had a chance to see her and say goodbye. By Tuesday she was bad and the doctors gave her a few days to live. We had all planned to travel home that day and not knowing how long exactly she had we all went home. We arrived home Tuesday evening and got the call that she had passed. We all traveled back to Missouri a few days later for the funeral.

School started back two weeks ago. The kids are loving school and I have a great group of 1st graders this year. I have a small class of 12 and they are super sweet. Jeremy finally finished his ED.S degree and we finally got our Adoption refund (THANK YOU JESUS!) from the IRS. I have officially paid off two of the three adoptions and am hoping to have the final one paid off in the next 10 months. My heart is longing to adopt again and I hope we get the chance to adopt again. Yes, I am crazy!

The real reason I wanted to blogging again is because there are many emotions going on in our life. It hit me the other day that in less than one year we will say goodbye to  the place we have called home for so many years. The last school year just flew by and I know that this year will also fly and I am starting to realize all the people, places and things I will be saying goodbye to. Please do not get me wrong, I am excited to move to Chicago. I have lived in the South for the last 15 years, but I am still a city girl! It is kinda like going back home but THIS has been my home for so long. Tennessee is where I have lived my adult life. Tennessee is where I have met people who are forever a part of my life. So it might be a little depressing but I need to write about my goodbyes. Writing about them might be the only way to get through them.

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