Wednesday, January 27, 2016
This past week has not been the easiest. Friday afternoon my body started to revolt against me and I would enter what is called a Fibro flare. It basically means that the pain you feel every day is amplified by about 100 times and it could last a few days or a few weeks. They are different for each person that has these, but I would describe the feeling as if someone has dipped my whole body in concrete and I am now required to walk around and function in society. Every thing in my body feels heavy and every inch of me hurts to the point that the clothes on my body are causing a degree of pain. It hurts to stand up but it also hurts to lay down. Your chest feels tight and heavy and you wonder every few hours if maybe you need to go to the ER but you feel like you might be dying. Sleeping is almost none existent, so it just makes everything else worse. I have become pretty good at figuring our what brings on this flare and I have them at much fewer intervals the last year and a half or so (Thanks to using my essential oils I have seen great improvements.) I sometimes flare after a long trip or if I have overextended my muscles and embarrassing to say that this past summer it was a stubborn weed in the backyard that was my undoing. This past weekend I am not sure what brought on the flare. Thankfully is only lasted a few days and I was starting to feel better by Monday, but then Monday and Tuesday we have been dealing with a more serious prayer concern.
My last post as I mentioned was a bit unusual for me to write. I know now that I needed to say some things that would be helpful in praying for S and our entire family. I am hesitant about even sharing any of the details, but it is something I would like for you to pray about and think about with your own family or families you know with kids. S has been acting a little unfocused lately and a bit aloof at home. I chalked it up to being a 6th grade boy. The last few weeks my heart has become heavy for S and hence the last post. On Monday I had extremely heavy heart and as I changed sheets and cleaned up rooms I felt a heaviness in S's room and I do not say this to scare anyone or seem like I am crazy, but there was a moment that the hairs on my arm stood up because I felt something was off. That night I went to S's room to tell him goodnight and I just tried to see if something was bothering him or if he wanted to talk and he got really ugly with me. I was up most of Monday night just praying because I felt that there was a real struggle going on for my son's heart. Jeremy spoke with him last night and bottom line is that he has been exposed to some things at school that have not been appropriate. He came clean to Jeremy about some of the things going on at school and S was sincerely broken about it. Please as you read this do not make a million assumptions as to what happened. It is not an unforgivable offense and it is not something at this stage has condemned his life. It is something that could lead him down the road of destruction if it had not come to light. It is a huge reminder that the enemy is out to destroy families and we must always stay diligent. We must address the hard issues of life because I promise you someone will tell your kids, grand kids, nieces, nephews, and whoever is on your life and I promise you that their view will not be what God has intended. It is a challenge that we are fervently praying for our kids. If your kids are grown or you do not have kids, find a family in your church or a family you know with kids and commit to praying with them when it comes to their kids and their purity and heart for God. We have had some hard conversions the last 24 hours and I am sure harder ones will continue, but it has also been a great opportunity to share with all of kids the power of forgiveness and how to overcome temptations with Jesus' help. It has established a huge opportunity to show them that they can trust us with whatever struggle they are having. It has given us an opportunity in S's life to let him know that we will fight for his emotional and spiritual well-being. My pray is that post has not embarrassed S or our family or that any judgemental thoughts have popped into your head. This has been a hard, raw post to write. We are all human and even as a child of God we face temptations of this life that need to be dealt with quickly and prayerfully. My hope in this post is that you will pray for S and all the kids in your life that God place His barrier of
protection around them. (Just a side note to those who I talk to on a regular basis, please do not ask me any more details on this matter. We have placed it under the blood of Jesus and the details do not need to be spoken out loud <3).
My last post as I mentioned was a bit unusual for me to write. I know now that I needed to say some things that would be helpful in praying for S and our entire family. I am hesitant about even sharing any of the details, but it is something I would like for you to pray about and think about with your own family or families you know with kids. S has been acting a little unfocused lately and a bit aloof at home. I chalked it up to being a 6th grade boy. The last few weeks my heart has become heavy for S and hence the last post. On Monday I had extremely heavy heart and as I changed sheets and cleaned up rooms I felt a heaviness in S's room and I do not say this to scare anyone or seem like I am crazy, but there was a moment that the hairs on my arm stood up because I felt something was off. That night I went to S's room to tell him goodnight and I just tried to see if something was bothering him or if he wanted to talk and he got really ugly with me. I was up most of Monday night just praying because I felt that there was a real struggle going on for my son's heart. Jeremy spoke with him last night and bottom line is that he has been exposed to some things at school that have not been appropriate. He came clean to Jeremy about some of the things going on at school and S was sincerely broken about it. Please as you read this do not make a million assumptions as to what happened. It is not an unforgivable offense and it is not something at this stage has condemned his life. It is something that could lead him down the road of destruction if it had not come to light. It is a huge reminder that the enemy is out to destroy families and we must always stay diligent. We must address the hard issues of life because I promise you someone will tell your kids, grand kids, nieces, nephews, and whoever is on your life and I promise you that their view will not be what God has intended. It is a challenge that we are fervently praying for our kids. If your kids are grown or you do not have kids, find a family in your church or a family you know with kids and commit to praying with them when it comes to their kids and their purity and heart for God. We have had some hard conversions the last 24 hours and I am sure harder ones will continue, but it has also been a great opportunity to share with all of kids the power of forgiveness and how to overcome temptations with Jesus' help. It has established a huge opportunity to show them that they can trust us with whatever struggle they are having. It has given us an opportunity in S's life to let him know that we will fight for his emotional and spiritual well-being. My pray is that post has not embarrassed S or our family or that any judgemental thoughts have popped into your head. This has been a hard, raw post to write. We are all human and even as a child of God we face temptations of this life that need to be dealt with quickly and prayerfully. My hope in this post is that you will pray for S and all the kids in your life that God place His barrier of
protection around them. (Just a side note to those who I talk to on a regular basis, please do not ask me any more details on this matter. We have placed it under the blood of Jesus and the details do not need to be spoken out loud <3).
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| The only picture I have gotten this week was of the girls working on their President's Day project. |
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