Sweet Life in the City

"Why am I always the one that has to wait on good things to happen to me? Nothing comes easy for me, and it just doesn't seem fair!" These words came out of my mouth this week. Well, they actually were written in a text message but came out of my heart. I guess I have had these thought for most of my life, but they all came pouring out last Thursday. School was never easy for me. I made good grades and did well in school, but I worked hard for those good grades. Losing weight has never been easy for me. Making good friends does not come easy for me. Oh, I have many friends, but it is not easy for me to go through the process of making lifelong friends. When I meet new people I have to really work at putting down my insecurities and let people get to know me. I get lots of compliments on my hair, but trust me it is not easy to get my hair to look good. Athletic ability has never come easy for me, so much in fact I refrain from any athletic activity. My health has not been ...

Wait for the LORD; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD. Psalm 37:9 It seems since my last post all of my readings, devotions and  Jesus Calling  readings have been exactly what I mentioned in my last post. It is amazing to me that God knows me so well and He is constantly giving me reminders of His Faithfulness.  Despite all the trusting I have been trying to do (SIGH) I had a moment I was not too proud of today. I will not go into all the details, but there has been something at school that has been irking me. I had this moment today where I had myself a pity party and was upset because things did not turn out the way I thought they would. I was given some options but did not like either one of them. But then I go back to my past post. It is not about what I want, what does God want. Where can I be used the best for Him? That is the question. We have been struggling the past few weeks about where to send the kids to school next year. It has been wonderfu...

"Because God is my sovereign Lord, I was not worried. He manages perfectly, day and night, year in and year out, the movements of the stars, the wheeling of the planets, the staggering coordination of events that goes on the molecular level in order to hold things together. There is no doubt that he can manage the timing of my days and weeks."  Elisabeth Elliot I get so aggravated with myself! I wish I could make it through one day of not worrying or planning or trying to figure things out in my life. For months I have been stressing over classes and tests and I knew God was whispering to me, "I got this! Stop worrying! You're right, YOU can't do this, but I CAN!" He helped me get through Algebra and I knew a few weeks ago that I had passed two of the four tests. Monday night I signed on to my account on the testing site and when I signed in I saw that all my results were ready to be viewed. With great delight I saw that I had passed all four tests and actua...

"  I have decided to follow Jesus, I have decided to follow Jesus, I have decided to follow Jesus. No turning back, no turning back."  Have you ever wished you could go back and change _________ (fill in the blank). Some times I think about times when I wish I would have not said that one thing I should not of said. Or, I wish I would have said something that I think about much later in the day. I think about times when I missed an opportunity or maybe forgot to enjoy every moment of a particular season of my life because I was preoccupied by something else. Some times it not necessarily something that I did not do/say, but just think about different decisions in my life that have brought me to where I am today. We moved from TN ten months ago yesterday. 10 months! How can that be possible?! Moving to Chicago was anything but easy the first few months of our move. The past 5-6 months we have started to settle in and we really do love the city, BUT it is not easy living in the...