Sunday, January 1, 2012

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We have had a great day! We are enjoying our last few days of break. Tomorrow will be our last day and we head back to reality on Tuesday. The kids continue to amaze me at their skills with technology and Sam and Emma have been playing their DSI's while Chloe plays the Ipad like they have been playing all their life. They can figure things our better than I can on some of those games:) They are going to have a rough time once school starts back because their time of the devices will be drastically cut during the week. Sam did play with his cars and leggos most of the day. I love watching him play and use his imagination:) We watched Cars 2 last night and then the kids went to bed. I was not planning on staying up late, but a movie came on that I liked so I was up until midnight.

This weekend my heart and mind has been heavy for what this year has for us. I know that I God does not have to give me conformation on our move to Chicago, but I need something very tangible. I think some of my discouragement is the lack of support we have gotten from some who are the closest to us. I know they love us and want what is best for us, but their comments only fuel the fears and uncertainty that I already have. I was certain our house would have sold by now. I know it is probably best that it has not sold because we do not know where we would go and moving twice would be a nightmare, but I feel like because our house has not sold it  gives those who are doubting us something to throw back at us. We truly feel like we will be moving this summer and it is embarrassing to me to think about having to tell everyone that we are not moving if our house does not sell and Jeremy does not get a job. I know, I know I am totally over thinking this and I am months ahead of myself and God can so anything... but this is what I am struggling with. I am asking that you would pray for me on this situation.

Well I have made some resolutions/goals for this year. I am actually going to make a GOALS page that I will be editing each week.

Here are a few pictures from our weekend.



 

 

 

 

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