My two night streak of sleeping good was broken last night. I worked all day yesterday and then went to Curves to workout, so last night I was really sore and had trouble going to sleep. I finally drifted off to sleep and in comes Samuel. He climbed in bed with us and about 30 minutes later we hear Emma. So I got up and got Emma and then Sam and I went to Emma's bed and I put Emma in our bed. I feel like we play this game every night, someone cries and we all switch beds. I do not have to work today so we did sleep in a little thing morning. We are planning on staying in today. In fact this week starts my Monday and Friday schedule at work so I do not have to work until Friday. I am going to try and not get out the next few days except to exercise. I always spend too much money if I leave the house with the kids. I am also trying to get in habit of staying in because I do not plan on leaving much when I have three kids to get in and out of the car and into the store. The plan for today is get my house clean so I can just enjoy the next few days now that does not include the kids rooms. I am convinced that they will never be really clean. Emma is taking a nap right now and Sam is playing with his Leap Frog computer game. Jeremy left the computer here today and I tend to spend too much time on it on the days it is here. I have been looking for some cute kinda matching shirts for the kids for when Chloe comes home but I have not found any that I really like. I did find this cute t-shirt for me. It says "Adoption Checklist", Fill out paperwork, stalk mailman, become irrational, wait, wait some more. I think there may be a few other things on it but I can't remember them. I thought it was funny especially because I found it shortly after I had been watching out the window for the mail to get here:) Well I am going to get some lunch and finish getting the house clean.
Saturday, September 2, 2023
"I live with a difficult child. That is really hard to write, but the truth is that I have lived with a difficult child for about 14 years. The last few years have been unbearable at times." I haven't written a post in a long time. The main reason is that I don't have a personal computer (my work computer will not let me log in with my personal email) and I absolutely hate writing from my phone, but here I am needing to write,so I write. When I logged on this evening I found that I had started to write a post on May 23, 2022, but never finished it. We had just come off one of the most difficult years with Chloe. I could be found most nights just crying in my bathroom or screaming, "I can't live in this house with her anymore!" Her treatment towards me had escalated so intensely that I didn't even speak to her for several days and I was a little afraid of her. She had been making so many poor choices at home and we just tried to keep them hidden. I...
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