Yesterday was a pretty uneventful day. We all slept in so that was nice and then the kids and I just hung around the house most of the morning. The kids took a little nap and then our friend watched the kids so I could go exercise. I had another sleepless night. I was so tired but I just could not fall asleep. I had a million things running through my head. Most of things involved three little Koreans:)I have also been a little anxious about our finances, mainly getting Chloe's adoption paid off. We have several grant applications out to organizations but you just never know if they will be able to help. We will be OK, but I just do not like this much debt hanging over our head. Well, I finally drifted off to sleep and Emma woke up crying or should I say screaming. I went in her room and laid down with her hoping she would go back to sleep but she was mad that I did not pick her up. She kept crying and then she heard her daddy in the other room say, "Just bring her in here" and that is what I did. The whole time Emma was crying Samuel stayed fast asleep but as soon as I put my head back on my pillow I saw a little figure coming down the hallway. Sam comes into our room and said, "Hey, I cannot sleep by myself." So I got up and we went to Emma's bed to sleep. We then were up early because I had to be at work at 8. Tomorrow the plan is to clean, clean, clean. I was going to take our two cats in tomorrow to get spayed but I we are going to be gone all weekend and I forgot that they may need some extra attention so I rescheduled for next week. My parents are coming in tomorrow night and then we are off to Family Reunion on Friday. So, I will not be posting the next few days. The other night Sam and Emma found a dog costume in Sam's closet so they wanted to wear it. I have posted a short video of their silliness.
Monday, February 3, 2025
Oh, hey. Just dropping in to unload the million thoughts going on in my head. I know it's been awhile and once again I am writing this from my phone, so please excuse any mistakes. I am wearing my reading glasses since the last time I posted so maybe writing from my phone won't be as bad as it usually is. I'm a little bit of a mess these days and I am entering the time of the year that is the hardest on me emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. These next few months are filled with dates that broke me. There are dates the next few months that take me back to the darkest days I have experienced. I enter this fight with the demons that seemed to have attached themselves to me 22 years ago. Praise Jesus, He gave me victory from those demons, but this time of year they like to rear their ugly heads and I struggle. Cancer gave me so many wonderful people and experiences that would not be part of who I am now. But cancer and the trauma that followed ...
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