Tuesday, January 15, 2013

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This morning my reading in Jesus Today by Sarah Young was so good that I have decided to post the whole devotion/reading for today.

" Trust Me here and now. You are in rigorous training--- on an adventure trail designed for you alone. This path is not of your choosing, but it is MY way for you. I am doing things you can't understand. That is why I say, "Trust Me!"

The jungle is thick, and you cannot clearly see what is before you, behind you, or beside you. Cling to My hand as you follow this trail in shadowy darkness. Although you cannot see Me, My Presence is rock-solid reality. Find hope in Me, beloved, for I am taking care of you.

Focus on enjoying Me and all that I am to you -- even though your circumstances scream for resolution. Refuse to obsess about your problems and how you are going to fix them. Instead, affirm your trust in Me; wait hopefully in My Presence, and watch to see what I will do."

Isn't that so good? I know I have mentioned this before but I really struggle sometimes as I look at people around me (yes, even family and friends) and wonder why their life seems to be so easy. Now I know that things are not as peachy as they seem, every one has their own issues, but it just seems unfair sometimes. I really try to view my life as the story that God is writing. This story is only about me and I need to focus on my story and not worry about anybody's else. God is also writing their story, but He wants me to not only live the story He is writing, but to enjoy every minute of it. Sometimes when I blog I will quickly call or text my sister and ask, "Does my blog sound like I hate my life or I am a big whiner?" because I love my life and I do not want it to come off like I do. I love my husband and kids. I love how God wrote the story of how my children came to me. I love how God worked and we are now in Chicago. I guess I just want to be honest about the fact that I fight and struggle with my own demons( I guess I would call it that.) With my birthday yesterday and this devotion this morning it just reminded me of the amazing story God is writing in my life and it will be filled with days of fear, anxiety, heart-break, pain (lots and lots of pain), the appearance of unfairness, insecurity, and discouragement, but the Author of my story is in complete control and He is with me I just need to trust.

Well, I really did not plan on writing all of that. I was actually planning on posting a video if Sam lip-singing the song " Empty Chairs and Empty Tables" from Les Miserables. We have been obsessed with the soundtrack and that particular song is my favorite. It is soo funny but he got embarrassed so I promised not to post it, but here is one of him and Lucy.

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  1. KatieFebruary 13, 2013 at 12:50 PM

    Kim, I loved this post. I'll prolly have to come back and re-read.... and go buy that book! =D

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