Monday, August 27, 2018

I feel like a blinked and it went from Thursday to Monday! Friday morning we had a kindergarten ease-in day and I was able to meet most of the students that will be in our class this year. One of our students is a sibling of some students I know from my last school. I see at least seven familiar faces at my new school and it has been a great comfort to me. It seems like we will have a really great group of kids and I am excited to see how much they will learn and grow this school year. Friday afternoon was our staff luncheon and finishing up things to get ready for today. Friday night I was pretty tired, but Friday nights have become Jeremy's and I's night to watch an episode of whatever crime series we have been watching. This started a few years ago when we got hooked on "Midsomer Murders". We managed to watch all 19 seasons and since season 20 has not made it to Netflix yet we had to find another series. We have gone through two other series ("Hinterland" and "Shetland") and most recently "Wallander". I tried my hardest to stay awake but I think I slept through most of the show. I finally got into bed about midnight. Before I went to sleep my fur baby Minnie was acting kind of weird and was acting like she was gagging on something. She is a beagle. A beagle that lives up to the reputation of eating things they should not eat. We have had several times that she ate something weird and got sick so I was not too concerned. About 1:15 Saturday morning I heard her outside our bedroom getting sick. I got up to see that she had thrown up several times and it was so gross. I almost got sick trying to clean it up. As I said, it didn't really alarm me until I noticed that even after throwing up she was acting really strange. She was panting really hard, she wouldn't lay down, and when she would lay down she would go on her side and I could see her whole body shaking. Her eyes were squinting and her tail was between her legs. I tried all I could think of (I have taken care of sick dogs many times) but she was really starting to scare me. About 2:00 that morning I woke Jeremy up crying and telling him what was going on. He got up and got dressed and called the nearest emergency vet to see if he could bring her in. With a storm moving in, my amazing husband loves me so much and cares about the things that hurt my heart and took my fur baby in the middle of night to get her help. I laid on the couch weeping. Weeping because my fur baby was so sick and weeping because I could not even bear to think about how much this was going to cost 😭. You see the enemy has been working overtime on me and my fear when it comes to our fiances. I knew August was going to be tight for us. I was also hoping that our house would have already been sold and that some money I am owed from a previous employer would had already been paid to me.The place said they were not going to pay me so I had to take some action. The case has been on going for months and although it was settled last Tuesday I found out this morning that it would probably be next month before I saw the check. I also did not factor in the start of school tuition and other back to school expenses. My bank account has not been pretty. Maybe for the first time every I have bills that have not been paid this month. Jeremy has not been paid since the second week of July and although I have been paid it has been enough to cover half of our bills. We both will get paid on Friday but I feel like once I get caught up from this month I will find myself in the same sinking boat. As I laid on the coach waiting for news about what was wrong with Minnie the Lord kept whispering to me, "It all belongs to me". I felt like the Lord was revealing to me that no matter if my bank account was spilling over He could take it in a second. The good, bad, and ugly places we find ourselves in life He is in control of it. Jeremy got home about 3 AM and Minnie was going to live 😏. She probably did eat something that unsettled her stomach, but the throwing up inflamed her lungs. She had the beginning stage of pneumonia and kennel cough. The kennel cough still doesn't make sense because she is never boarded and the only dog she is around is Lucy who is also never around any other dogs. She is on medicine and thankfully she isn't "coughing" today. It was a really rough night and I was up pretty early to get the house ready for two showings. I was also meeting some friends for breakfast and I was still pretty stressed about money and life. I slept pretty good Saturday night and then Sunday came. We have started a series on the Names of God and of course Sunday was on God being our Jehovah Jireh- The Lord will provide. It doesn't depend how how much money I have or how much money I owe to other people. God's provision doesn't depend on our house selling or getting the check that is owed to me. It doesn't depend on good health of my family or my dogs, it doesn't depend on any effort I can make. It all hinges on who God is and what He has promised! And so with hands wide open I try to hand over all the anxiety and trust the ONE who can be trusted to fulfill His promises in our life.

After much anxiety this summer, my girls finally started at their new school. This weekend the anxiety was showing with both girls. My anxiety about other things probably did not help the atmosphere in our home. We were up so early to get to school on time. I think the early mornings will be what takes the most toll on all of us. No issues with getting Samuel to school and then us getting to school on time. Traffic wasn't too bad, but it will probably change when everyone in the city is back in school. I am still praying that traffic will still be okay at that time in the morning. I want to thank everyone who prayed for the girls today. I know it helped with their nerves. They both seemed to have a pretty good day. Chloe seemed to be happy in 5th grade and Emma's day was made somewhat better when she found out another girl in her class is a Harry Potter fan. There is a coffee shop connected to our school. So after school I got a coffee and treated the girls to a hot chocolate. I continue to pray that both girls will make some good friendships and will feel comfortable in their new surroundings. Every day it is becoming more clear as to why we had to endure so much sadness and I am thankful the Lord led all of us to this new adventure.