Saturday, August 20, 2011- My Sweet Karlita
Five days, that is all it took. Five short days in a lifetime of days to fall completely in love with a beautiful Guatemalan girl named Karlita. With her big, beautiful eyes and her snaggeltooth grin she melted my heart and my life would never be the same again. For five days I held this baby girl. I took walks with her around their home. I rocked her to sleep. I fed her lunch and then wiped off her dirty face. I loved to tickle her in the neck and watch her throw her head back and laugh the sweetest laugh. I loved to see her eyes light up when she saw me and would reach for me to pick her up. I was sad when it was time to go and she would cry for me when I would have to put her down. I wished with all my heart there was some way I could have this little girl as my very own. I wished the system did not make it impossible to make this little girl my daughter. I left that little girl in Guatemala knowing that she was in good hands. The nuns loved her and doted on her and I knew she would be taken care of. I also left with the hope that I would see and hold this baby girl again.
The past few weeks Karlita has been on my mind. I have been trying to figure out when I could go back to Guatemala with our church again. They are going in October but I knew I could not make that trip. I was trying to think of some gift I could give to them to give to Karlita from me. I longed to hold her again. I found out yesterday that I will never get the chance to hold her again on this side of Heaven.
A few weeks ago the government stepped in and took Karlita from the orphanage and placed her back with some of her family. When Karlita was found over a year ago she was starving to death. She was malnourished and could not walk or hold herself up. I was under the impression that she would never be returned to family. In a twisted world this precious girl was taken from the only place she knew love and care and was placed with family. Karlita passed away a few days from an untreated urinary tract infection. The news has shaken up my world. My heart is broken. My heart breaks for Karlita, the nuns, and the other girls at the orphanage who loved this little girl. My heart breaks for all the other children in this world who are dying from treatable sicknesses. I feel helpless. I know I cannot save them all, but I wish I could of saved her.
I do not know what to do with the feelings I am feeling. I wish I had the resources to adopt has many as kids my house would hold. There are so many resources out there so maybe you know someone who has the money to adopt and will not. Maybe you could encourage them to save a child. If they do not want to adopt, pass along my name. In a country we are so blessed to live in surely there is something more we could be doing.
My dear Karlita,
You will forever live in my heart. You changed my life and I love you so much! I know you are resting in the arms of our loving Father.
The past few weeks Karlita has been on my mind. I have been trying to figure out when I could go back to Guatemala with our church again. They are going in October but I knew I could not make that trip. I was trying to think of some gift I could give to them to give to Karlita from me. I longed to hold her again. I found out yesterday that I will never get the chance to hold her again on this side of Heaven.
A few weeks ago the government stepped in and took Karlita from the orphanage and placed her back with some of her family. When Karlita was found over a year ago she was starving to death. She was malnourished and could not walk or hold herself up. I was under the impression that she would never be returned to family. In a twisted world this precious girl was taken from the only place she knew love and care and was placed with family. Karlita passed away a few days from an untreated urinary tract infection. The news has shaken up my world. My heart is broken. My heart breaks for Karlita, the nuns, and the other girls at the orphanage who loved this little girl. My heart breaks for all the other children in this world who are dying from treatable sicknesses. I feel helpless. I know I cannot save them all, but I wish I could of saved her.
I do not know what to do with the feelings I am feeling. I wish I had the resources to adopt has many as kids my house would hold. There are so many resources out there so maybe you know someone who has the money to adopt and will not. Maybe you could encourage them to save a child. If they do not want to adopt, pass along my name. In a country we are so blessed to live in surely there is something more we could be doing.
My dear Karlita,
You will forever live in my heart. You changed my life and I love you so much! I know you are resting in the arms of our loving Father.
Oh, Kim. I don't even know what to say. My heart is just broken. Something like this is so hard to understand, especially when there are people like you and me that would love to have given that sweet little girl (and so many others like her) a loving home. I'm so glad that she had those 5 days with you. She was the reason God led you to go on that trip and I know you made a difference in her little heart and mind. Please know that I'm praying for you during this difficult time.
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