Sunday, April 30, 2017

Looks like Sunday night will be my night to blog. We had another busy week at the Riggs' house (are you picking up on this theme lately?). I got a text Sunday night asking if I could cover after school on Monday until 5;30. Samuel has play practice almost every night so I would have to go back and get him at 5:30, so I agreed to fill in for the regular teacher who does after school every day. We got home close to 6:00, I made supper, homework, bedtime, and Monday was over. Tuesday was the Open House for the high school. I didn't need to go, but I felt like I needed to go and just give some moral support for Jeremy. It was a great turnout and we are continuing to pray that the families that came Tuesday night will chose to register their children. It was after 9:00 before we got home. Wednesday I had a staff meeting until 5:30, we rushed home and got ready for our real community group. I may have mentioned this, but we are meeting at the church until we break for summer instead of at our house. We have been blessed with so many new people but having 18 adults and 16 children in our house every Wednesday night just got too noisy for quality Bible study and prayer time. Thursday night was Samuel's sports banquet for school. Friday morning I had gotten ready for work, but when I went to wake Emma up to get ready she was burning up with fever. She was complaining of having a sore throat and was feeling dizzy. I took Sam and Chloe to school and then took Emma to the doctor. She had an upper respiratory infection and a bad cold virus. She just needed lots of rest this weekend. I had a sore throat and fever last night, so Emma and I stayed in this morning from church.
It was an extremely weary week. On top of the craziness of our week Chloe had a rough week. We really didn't have any issues at school (even though there is probably stuff we don't know about), She had a terrible week at home. She was back to her shenanigans of getting into stuff and taking things that do not belong to her. She would talk back to me and yell at me and just be unkind to everyone in our family. On Wednesday night at the church she kicked a toddler in the mouth. The details are a little fuzzy on what exactly happened, but the bottom line was that she was being mean. Kicking seems to be her go to with her siblings and with me sometimes, so I am sure she was just being mean. I don't think she processed the fact that she would hurt the little girl or make her mouth bleed, but she chose to hurt an incident little girl and it broke my heart. I really had a hard time staying calm because I was so upset. I was almost sure that there was smoke coming out of the top of my head. I am embarrassed, horrified, and completely heartbroken. I just broke down and cried because these are the weeks that I feel so inadequate to help her. Our pastor has asked me to share my testimony on Mother's Day (seriously pray for me, because most of you know how nervous I get) and I have been working on writing out what I want to share. I feel sometimes that people look at my story and how beautifully God gave us our children and forget that I struggle just like every other mom out there. Sometimes I forget that I am human and that these difficult moments are part of being a mom.There are times like this week that I feel like God chose the wrong mom to do this job. As quickly as that thought pops into my head He reminds me of all the circumstances that erase every doubt that I am the right one for the job.I am also so thankful for the woman in my life that continue to speak truth and encouragement into my life. Several of my "sisters" texting me Wednesday night praying over me and reminding me to keep bringing my children before the Father. One of Chloe's biggest triggers for misbehaving is lack of sleep. The two weeks of spring break with sleep schedules thrown off and then first week back to school played a huge role in the events of this week. We will work on getting her more sleep and pray for a better week.

Sam getting his soccer award