This week has passed so quickly. Each day I feel like the Lord is teaching me that I need to put down my plan book and just trust whatever He is planning for our life. I feel like my mind has been twirling around about what will be going on next year. The future for my husband and his job, Samuel going to high school, and where does the Lord want the girls and I next year. I feel like I have been stressing and more stressing. All these scenarios running through my head. I have mapped and planned until my head hurts. Wednesday night we started back our community group. We call is RC (Real Community) for any future posts. I came home Wednesday night and I became really convicted about all the things I have been stressing about. I have just been so torn because things going on have been too close to home, but the bottom line is that the Lord hasn't called me away from where I am and as long as I am allowed to stay, I need to stay. My heart has not been pure. My attitude has not reflected God's faithfulness and His perfect plan. I can't say that my heart is still not hurting or how I cannot wrap my head around how short this part of our family's story is turning out to be. I am learning that there are some things that are outside my comfort zone, but I cannot let my hurt or my dislike for conflict to keep me from doing what the Lord wants me to do. Things do not go as planned all the time and the Lord showed me in a big way today.
We had a field trip planned for February 9th, but because of the snow day it was rescheduled for today. I made arrangements with the bus company and the location for our field trip. I got an email verification from both place and an invoice for the payment that would be due. You may have picked up in my posts or if you know me personally, I am a planner. I am an excessive planner, so field trips are things that do not give me great joy planning because I go through all the worst scenarios and I stress that something will go wrong! I planned a trip in October with three other classes and I lost some sleep over that one! The field trip today was just my class so I was a little stressed but I knew that I had lined everything up and there shouldn't be any surprises. We were supposed to leave at 9:30. We got all our class and parents lined up and ready to go. I went by the road to see of the bus was here and there was no sign of the bus. I called the bus company at 9:35 and they said I did not have bus reserved for today! I was like yes I do. I have the invoice and the email confirmation and I talked to this person on this day... and every other detail I could think of to prove that I had indeed reserved a bus for today. I was hold with someone and panic started to sink in. I had a room full of restless kids. I had parents that had taken off work to come today and some had to take an extra day because the this trip was rescheduled. And then those feelings start to take over when things do not go as planned, I look foolish. I have let everyone down. I am an idiot. I am so embarrassed. I look like a terrible teacher! All of those things that the enemy uses to get into my head. Many of the thoughts that have plagued me with our more serious change of plans. We look foolish. We look like we have let people down... I went to the office and thankfully the school has two vans that hold like 24 people. One of the dad's going in a member of the church and could drive one of the vans and my rock star teacher aide drove the smaller van and I had about 7 parents that said they would drive their child over there. When I walked back into my classroom to tell them the new plan I was overwhelmed with the response of "what can we do to help?" Nobody thought I was foolish. Nobody blamed me for the change of plans. This was a reality and so we had to figure it out. We went to the field trip and we had the most wonderful time. My class parents were absolutely AMAZING and I am so thankful for them. My students were so well behaved and had so much fun and the Lord was shouting in my heart one word: RELAX. Not the kind of relax like lay down and take a nap, but the type of relax like you have got to get it together girl. Yes, it was a bit of a hiccup this morning. Yes, the morning went nothing like I had planned. But it was all worked out and it was one of the nicest field trips I have ever been on. I don't really know how to relax, but I am afraid the Lord is going to keep giving me opportunities to relax if I don't learn my lesson.
After we got back from the field trip I was able to go see my girls present a project they were working on. It was such a great idea! The 3rd-5th grade put on a wax museum where they picked a person who was influential in the Civil Rights Movement and the pretended to be in a wax museum. You would push a pretend button and then that student would present information about that person. It was so cute! Well, my hubby just got home and we are going to enjoy dinner at our favorite Columbia steakhouse with a gift certificate from some parents at school. Great way to stat the weekend!
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| Emma is helping with the yearbook. She came to take pictures, so I had to take a picture of her. Why does she look so old here? |
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| This is why I get along with my four year old so well. |
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| Amazed at my littles progress |
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