Tuesday, February 1, 2011- Day 98

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How in the world is it already February?! I know that I am posting early today but I have class tonight and it will be late when I get back. I realize that I have several hours to make totally wrong choices, but I am going to take my chances and will report any successes or failures with tomorrow's post. I have done well today even though it has been a rough day. The drastic change in the weather, the rain, and another big change in the weather has been so rough on my body. I could barely get up this morning (it could have also been from the P90X also). Anyway I felt so sluggish all day and by this afternoon I was craving something with chocolate. I have had a headache ALL day and I almost gave in to the chocolate. My sister asked me if the headache was from no caffeine and I assured her that I am not completely crazy I am hanging on to my Diet Coke. I am drinking it in moderation but not cutting it out of my life:) This afternoon I needed something so I got a Diet Coke out of the concessions at school. I got a Diet Coke that expired in 2009!Unfortunately I did not realize it was bad until I took a big gulp, GROSS! Anyway, my friend came to my rescue and got me a good Diet Coke:) While I was on the way to the concession another teacher who was craving chocolate asked me to get her a candy bar. Oh man, did I want a candy bar! I fought through it did not eat one= Yeah for me! I also went another day with no sweet tea:) I have also discovered a very yummy shake that I am replacing one meal with. It is easy for me to just grab a drink for breakfast. I sometimes do Slim-Fast or the Special K shakes but they just do not hold me over. So I found these Jillian Michaels Ultimate Shakes. They are pretty good and the fact that TV's toughest trainer in pointing her finger at me warning me to do good, also helps. Well it is time for me to head to Nashville. The weather is always horrible on Tuesday's nights. It is pouring down rain! If you read this in the next few hours pray for me.





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