Tuesday, September 25, 2012- Happy Birthday to Samuel (a day late:)
" This child's birth mother did not know her pregnancy at all. In June or July of 2004, her mother and her eldest sister saw her big belly and got aware of her pregnancy. She entered the unmarried mother's home on September 23, 2004 when she was 9 months pregnant and then was delivered of this child on the next day. However, she and her family thought that it would be impossible to raise the child alone because her family could not help take care of the baby in poor condition. Therefore, she released parental right and referred this child for adoption."
This is the account of Samuel entering into this world. Every time I read through the accounts of my kids birth experience I cannot help but be saddened. My heart aches for the birth mothers while feeling so overwhelmed by the joy that I have received at the price of their sacrifice and heartbreak. I grieve because I did not experience those first precious days of their lives. I think about what a significant event took place on the day of their birth and it can be summed up into a few sentences. Last night Samuel and I went through his baby book and I read over the documents that state his birthday, birthplace, how much he weighed, his birth mother's name and age, and other information. He smiled when I told him that his name Jae- means clean and Min- means smart. We got to the part that mentioned his birth mother and all the information under father said one word "unknown." Tear flowed as I realized I will never have ANY answers about his birth father. Each time I talk to him about his adoption I wait for the sadness and questions to come over him, but he such smiles and beams with pride that he is part of our family. I know those days might come, but as of today they are still unasked. I know I mention this every year on his birthday, but Samuel Jae saved my life. God used this amazing little boy to heal my heart that had been broken beyond repair by my own understanding. He has impacted so many lives in his 8 years of life and I am beyond excited to see how God is going to use this amazing child. I would thank you for loving him, but I already know that he is impossible not to love:)
Friday night my parents and brother came over for his birthday supper. He got a Pokemon Wii game from Grandma and Grandpa and he literally kissed it when he opened it! He got some cool Angry Birds tattoos and some Pokemon cards. Jeremy headed out to OK on Saturday morning and the kids and I headed to the laundry mat. We then headed home and rested the rest of the weekend. My allergies have still been giving me a hard time. I cannot seem to shake this headache, sore throat, and sniffles. Jeremy got back Monday morning and took the bus from the airport to school. We all had a great first Monday (I know crazy!) at school and then Samuel wanted homemade BBQ and twice baked potatoes for his birthday supper so I was in the kitchen a while when we got home, but that is what he wanted:) He got two cards in the mail and a package from TN that made his birthday even more special.
This is the account of Samuel entering into this world. Every time I read through the accounts of my kids birth experience I cannot help but be saddened. My heart aches for the birth mothers while feeling so overwhelmed by the joy that I have received at the price of their sacrifice and heartbreak. I grieve because I did not experience those first precious days of their lives. I think about what a significant event took place on the day of their birth and it can be summed up into a few sentences. Last night Samuel and I went through his baby book and I read over the documents that state his birthday, birthplace, how much he weighed, his birth mother's name and age, and other information. He smiled when I told him that his name Jae- means clean and Min- means smart. We got to the part that mentioned his birth mother and all the information under father said one word "unknown." Tear flowed as I realized I will never have ANY answers about his birth father. Each time I talk to him about his adoption I wait for the sadness and questions to come over him, but he such smiles and beams with pride that he is part of our family. I know those days might come, but as of today they are still unasked. I know I mention this every year on his birthday, but Samuel Jae saved my life. God used this amazing little boy to heal my heart that had been broken beyond repair by my own understanding. He has impacted so many lives in his 8 years of life and I am beyond excited to see how God is going to use this amazing child. I would thank you for loving him, but I already know that he is impossible not to love:)
Friday night my parents and brother came over for his birthday supper. He got a Pokemon Wii game from Grandma and Grandpa and he literally kissed it when he opened it! He got some cool Angry Birds tattoos and some Pokemon cards. Jeremy headed out to OK on Saturday morning and the kids and I headed to the laundry mat. We then headed home and rested the rest of the weekend. My allergies have still been giving me a hard time. I cannot seem to shake this headache, sore throat, and sniffles. Jeremy got back Monday morning and took the bus from the airport to school. We all had a great first Monday (I know crazy!) at school and then Samuel wanted homemade BBQ and twice baked potatoes for his birthday supper so I was in the kitchen a while when we got home, but that is what he wanted:) He got two cards in the mail and a package from TN that made his birthday even more special.
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