Sunday, April 8, 2018

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We waited and waited for Spring Break to get here, and just like that it is back to reality tomorrow. We had a pretty good week. On Wednesday Jeremy and I went up to Lake Geneva, WI for a little get away. Our RC group got together a few weeks ago and surprised us with a monetary gift and a volunteer to stay overnight at our house with our kids and our dogs. We have been under a quite a bit of stress lately and they insisted we get away for a night. We stayed at a really nice bed and breakfast place. We ate at some local restaurants and we went to see "I Can Only Imagine" and I would recommend you going to see it if it is still playing in your area. It was a powerful story of forgiveness and redemption. We had planned to stay in Lake Geneva most of Thursday, but it was so cold and I wasn't feeling very well. I have had some really bad pain days the this week. It sounds weird but sometimes when I have time off it actually makes me feel worse. If I am not as active as I am during school days I tend to feel worse. The stress my body has been experiencing is causing all kinds of issues and I am praying that relief will soon come. We spent the rest of break hanging at the house, watching baseball, and taking the kids to the store to spend some money they had. Well, money that Sam and Emma had. Chloe has been in a bad habit of getting into our stuff in the bathroom and filling it up with water and ruining whatever she was messing with. She got into some of Jeremy's beard product and had to pay for it. I took them to Target yesterday and it took forever for them to decide what they wanted to buy. Sam got a DSI game and Emma bought a movie for us to watch.

This morning we went to church and our Pastor is starting a series that I think was written for us. We are started a series called "Unshackled Joy", finding joy despite the circumstances you find yourself. I have to be honest that it has been hard to find joy these last eight months. It has been almost impossible for me the last few weeks. I find myself between complete panic and then feeling so confidant and trusting that God is going to work this out. One minute I am like," Everything is good" and then the next minute I am pricing campers online in case we have to live in one. So many changes and so many challenges. Just today we had to meet with a tax guy because our taxes were so complicated this year. For the first time ever we had to pay something. Not just something, thousands of dollars. So much is threatening to steal our joy and I find myself in moments of just handing my joy over. Today was a good reminder of where true joy comes from and so I will continue to keep trusting and asking the Lord to calm my anxious heart. Praying and trusting for some answers this week.



We spent about 15 minutes in this aisle. I think they picked up every book!


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