Saturday, February 5, 2011- Day 94

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[caption id="attachment_2347" align="alignnone" width="614" caption="This was taken a few weeks ago when we took Lucy to the vet."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_2349" align="alignnone" width="819" caption="Emma playing with her doll house. Please excuse the dirty face:0"][/caption]

 

[caption id="attachment_2348" align="alignnone" width="614" caption="Chloe has put this puzzle together about 50 times! She has carried it around with her since she got it."][/caption]

Well if you are reading my blog I guess you noticed that I did not blog yesterday. I was so exhausted when I got home last night. Yesterday was rough keeping to eating what I should. It is strange but it seems like Fridays and Sundays are the hardest to make good eating choices. I guess on Friday I just do not want to think about it. I made cupcakes for my class at school and there were a few extra but I only took enough cupcakes for everyone in the class, none extra for me to eat. Well, one of my students was gone so there it was that yummy pink cupcake looking at me. I felt bad but I ended up just throwing it away so I would not eat it! After school Sam and I went to the store and then we went to Curves. I got home after 5:30 and then started supper. I made this yummy chicken and black bean soup. It is pretty healthy for you and it is so good. I also made a few cheese quesadillas which I probably should not have made:( I then could not be strong and I ate one of the extra cupcakes. I did however break it in two and threw half of it away. That would have been a good idea if I had not kept the end with all the icing:)

This morning the kids let us sleep in a little bit. I was up at 5:30 to take Lucy out but I went right back to sleep. The kids all ended up in the bed with us and it was just a sweet time all together. Sam asked what it would be like if we had 10 kids! I told him that we would not be having 10 kids. Then the conversation took a bit of a turn. Sam asked me if I would want another baby. I told him I would take another baby. He then asked me if I had any babies in my stomach. I told him that mommy could not have babies in her stomach. My babies came from Korea. He asked me if someone took out all my babies:( I told him yes. Then the hard questions started. Sam asked "Who's tummy did I come from?" It is in moments like that I am happy that we can talk about it but it makes me really sad. It is those moments that I am reminded of the women that gave birth to my children and that there will many questions to come in their lives. I told Sam that even though he did not come from my tummy I will always be his mommy and love him very much. As the seriousness of the moment set in he then asks "Was I covered in blood when I came out of her tummy?" Emma then says "Gross, why are you guys talking about babies!" We all laughed and changed the subject until next time. I then got up and Sam, Chloe and myself went to Clarksville. I had to go to the bank and then I went to exercise at Curves. I got my three times in this week, Yippee! We then came home and I started getting my house cleaned and then I took an amazing nap. I will probably have trouble getting to sleep tonight but it was worth it! Well, I better get going I have some laundry to finish and I have some school work I need to get done. Have a great weekend!

 

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  1. Donna StephensonFebruary 5, 2011 at 11:26 AM

    Do you have a recipe for the chicken and black bean soup?

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