Monday, June 4, 2012
" Welcome challenging times as opportunities to trust Me. You have Me beside you and My Spirit within you, so no set of circumstances is too much for you to handle. When the path before you is dotted with difficulties, beware of measuring your strength against those challenges. That calculation is certain to riddle you with anxiety. Without Me, you wouldn't make it past the first hurdle!" Jesus Calling- June 4
Yesterday Jeremy and I celebrated 12 years of marriage. It really does not seem like 12 years. I was reflecting yesterday how difficult our lives were in those first few years of married life. We got married a few weeks after I graduated from college and Jeremy had one year left of school. I was working 40 hours a week and Jeremy was going to school and working nights at FedEx. We lived in a nice little apartment over by the Nashville airport. We both drove pretty old cars and one of them broke down at least once a month. One of our cars was actually stolen from the apartment parking lot. It was found up the road at another apartment complex all ripped up and I still cannot understand why someone would steal our old Buick. Money was tight and some thing always seem to come up. We had been married about a year and I started having some problems. I was having kidney problems and UTI's and my monthly cycle was all out of whack. I would visit my doctor every month and I was given the same answer, "You are young. Your body is just trying to work itself." In the meantime, Jeremy finished school and he accepted an assistant pastor job in Florence, SC and enrolled at CIU to pursue a higher degree. We moved to SC and my health only got worse. We were young and should have been care-free, but we were plagued with my constant health problem and doctors who had no idea what was going on. On April 2, 2003, I was finally diagnosed with endometrial cancer. I went through 11 months of treatments and finally had a complete hysterectomy on March 3, 2004. Those were hard years for me, but they were also hard years for Jeremy. My moods were all over the place. He saw the emotional, physical, and spiritual downward spiral that I was able to hide from the rest of the world. After my surgery, many things physically changed for me and I was ashamed and I felt like I had failed as a wife and as a women in general. God created us to have children and I would never be able to give him a child. Through every thing we have been through he has loved me, supported me, and has seen me through some very dark days. He has held me at night as I would cry and sob from all the pain and disappointment. He would help me through the panic attacks that followed after we moved back to TN and reality really set in. Even today as my body is plagued by days of extreme pain and my moods are still some times all over the place, he loves me. I am truly grateful that God picked Jeremy to be the leading man in my story that He is writing for my life.
Yesterday we went to church and then we went to Chili's for lunch. I had a gift card that I got from one of my students. My brother is staying with us for a few days, so we used him as our babysitter last night. Jeremy and I went to see a movie. We went to see Snow White and the Huntsman. It was more of a guy movie than I thought it would be. It was okay, but not my favorite. In fact, I was very unhappy with how it ended because it left this girl hanging. I won't tell you why I did not like the ending in case you are wanting to see it. The kids let us sleep until 7:30 this morning, but then I found out that Chloe has been going in to Sam's room trying to wake up my brother. I think she thought we were still gone:) Today we just stayed home. I got a few things done and then I took a great 3 hour nap! Tomorrow will probably be the same thing as today. We are going to tackle our garage this week. We have some major purging to do! Well, I cannot get a picture to post tonight. I will try again tomorrow.
Yesterday Jeremy and I celebrated 12 years of marriage. It really does not seem like 12 years. I was reflecting yesterday how difficult our lives were in those first few years of married life. We got married a few weeks after I graduated from college and Jeremy had one year left of school. I was working 40 hours a week and Jeremy was going to school and working nights at FedEx. We lived in a nice little apartment over by the Nashville airport. We both drove pretty old cars and one of them broke down at least once a month. One of our cars was actually stolen from the apartment parking lot. It was found up the road at another apartment complex all ripped up and I still cannot understand why someone would steal our old Buick. Money was tight and some thing always seem to come up. We had been married about a year and I started having some problems. I was having kidney problems and UTI's and my monthly cycle was all out of whack. I would visit my doctor every month and I was given the same answer, "You are young. Your body is just trying to work itself." In the meantime, Jeremy finished school and he accepted an assistant pastor job in Florence, SC and enrolled at CIU to pursue a higher degree. We moved to SC and my health only got worse. We were young and should have been care-free, but we were plagued with my constant health problem and doctors who had no idea what was going on. On April 2, 2003, I was finally diagnosed with endometrial cancer. I went through 11 months of treatments and finally had a complete hysterectomy on March 3, 2004. Those were hard years for me, but they were also hard years for Jeremy. My moods were all over the place. He saw the emotional, physical, and spiritual downward spiral that I was able to hide from the rest of the world. After my surgery, many things physically changed for me and I was ashamed and I felt like I had failed as a wife and as a women in general. God created us to have children and I would never be able to give him a child. Through every thing we have been through he has loved me, supported me, and has seen me through some very dark days. He has held me at night as I would cry and sob from all the pain and disappointment. He would help me through the panic attacks that followed after we moved back to TN and reality really set in. Even today as my body is plagued by days of extreme pain and my moods are still some times all over the place, he loves me. I am truly grateful that God picked Jeremy to be the leading man in my story that He is writing for my life.
Yesterday we went to church and then we went to Chili's for lunch. I had a gift card that I got from one of my students. My brother is staying with us for a few days, so we used him as our babysitter last night. Jeremy and I went to see a movie. We went to see Snow White and the Huntsman. It was more of a guy movie than I thought it would be. It was okay, but not my favorite. In fact, I was very unhappy with how it ended because it left this girl hanging. I won't tell you why I did not like the ending in case you are wanting to see it. The kids let us sleep until 7:30 this morning, but then I found out that Chloe has been going in to Sam's room trying to wake up my brother. I think she thought we were still gone:) Today we just stayed home. I got a few things done and then I took a great 3 hour nap! Tomorrow will probably be the same thing as today. We are going to tackle our garage this week. We have some major purging to do! Well, I cannot get a picture to post tonight. I will try again tomorrow.
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