Thursday, June 14, 2012
"I have loved you with an everlasting Love. Before time began, I knew you. For years you swam around in a sea of meaninglessness, searching for Love, hoping for hope. All the time I was pursuing you, aching to embrace you in My compassionate arms. When the time was right, I revealed Myself to you. I lifted you out of the sea of despair and set you down on a firm foundation." Jesus Calling- June 14
I have blogged many times about the painful days that I have faced in my life. There are many days over the past 8 years that cause an ache in my heart, but June 14 is a date that makes all those painful days worth while. I loved the devotion from today because on June 14, 2005 I was indeed "lifted out of my despair" when Samuel Jae Riggs came into our lives and healed our heart.
On this morning 7 years ago I was a nervous wreck! We had looked at the face of our precious son, but we knew that we were leaving our home early that morning as Jeremy and Kim, Husband and Wife, but would be returning home as Mom and Dad. It was a little overwhelming! Would he like us? What if we could not get him to stop crying? What if I forgot something? We flew to Detroit and my parents and uncle, aunt, and cousin ( who lived in MI) were waiting for us at the airport. We waited for what seemed like an eternity and finally those doors opened and several Korean women came out with a baby strapped to their front. Behind all the Korean women one Korean man came walking out of customs with the most precious earthly gift I have ever received. In his carrier was MY SON! Sam was so tiny and beyond all my expectations Samuel looked right at me and reached for me. The tears flowed! It was so moving that I soon realized that those around me (family and strangers) were also in tears at this amazing sight. I truly became a Mom in that very instant! It was my delivery experience. We flew back to Nashville and had another group of friends and family waiting to greet us. We stopped at Jeremy's parent's house on the way home and I can still see him sitting on their living room floor and we all just stared at him:) We could not believe he was finally home and our arms and hearts were no longer aching for a child. We finally got home and we gave Sam his first bath and he hated it! He screamed and I cried. He fell asleep and we put him in his crib. We no sooner got in bed and he started crying and in about 10 seconds he was back in my arms. He slept all night on my chest and it was the sweetest time. That night was the first of many nights that Sam slept with us. We did eventually make him start in his bed, but I think he was 5 before he stayed in his bed all night. I had several people assure me that he would not sleep with us forever and some nights I miss those nights of cuddling with my little guy. Samuel has been a joy since day one and I could not be more proud of the boy he has become. He has a special heart and I cannot imagine loving another little boy more than I love Sam. For his Gotcha Day he wanted a huge pancake for breakfast and then he wanted Chick-Fil-A for lunch. The rest of today was spent resting and unpacking from Vegas.
We got back from our trip around 4:00 yesterday afternoon. Despite my hesitations about the trip, it was a great few days. We got to Vegas around 10:00 (Midnight our time) Sunday night so we were pretty tired. Our day started Monday morning and was packed with various sessions until 8:00 that night. It was a very encouraging few days and I found it amazing that several sessions (all small group or individual) focused on all the insecurity stuff that I shared a few days before we left. We do not know if we "passed" their assessment and we will not find out for a few weeks. Tuesday was another packed day full of sessions but it ended around 4:00. We planned to go down to the Strip, but we were exhausted and we were not sure how we were going to get down there and back and we had to leave at 6:00 the next morning for our flight. So, we just stayed in and rested.
We still have no word on the house. It seems every one wants us to give the house away. Those interested want us to pay for every thing and that is not going to happen. Well, here are a few pictures from today. Oh, I forgot to mention that Emma lost another tooth on Saturday night. It is actually the first one that we had to pull. It has been hanging for weeks, but she would not let us pull it. She was screaming and biting us! Finally Saturday night I had enough and pulled it out and you would of thought that I was killing her! After I pulled it and she calmed down she says. "Mommy, I do not want to lose any more teeth!" I hated to break it to her that she has A LOT more teeth to lose:)
I have blogged many times about the painful days that I have faced in my life. There are many days over the past 8 years that cause an ache in my heart, but June 14 is a date that makes all those painful days worth while. I loved the devotion from today because on June 14, 2005 I was indeed "lifted out of my despair" when Samuel Jae Riggs came into our lives and healed our heart.
On this morning 7 years ago I was a nervous wreck! We had looked at the face of our precious son, but we knew that we were leaving our home early that morning as Jeremy and Kim, Husband and Wife, but would be returning home as Mom and Dad. It was a little overwhelming! Would he like us? What if we could not get him to stop crying? What if I forgot something? We flew to Detroit and my parents and uncle, aunt, and cousin ( who lived in MI) were waiting for us at the airport. We waited for what seemed like an eternity and finally those doors opened and several Korean women came out with a baby strapped to their front. Behind all the Korean women one Korean man came walking out of customs with the most precious earthly gift I have ever received. In his carrier was MY SON! Sam was so tiny and beyond all my expectations Samuel looked right at me and reached for me. The tears flowed! It was so moving that I soon realized that those around me (family and strangers) were also in tears at this amazing sight. I truly became a Mom in that very instant! It was my delivery experience. We flew back to Nashville and had another group of friends and family waiting to greet us. We stopped at Jeremy's parent's house on the way home and I can still see him sitting on their living room floor and we all just stared at him:) We could not believe he was finally home and our arms and hearts were no longer aching for a child. We finally got home and we gave Sam his first bath and he hated it! He screamed and I cried. He fell asleep and we put him in his crib. We no sooner got in bed and he started crying and in about 10 seconds he was back in my arms. He slept all night on my chest and it was the sweetest time. That night was the first of many nights that Sam slept with us. We did eventually make him start in his bed, but I think he was 5 before he stayed in his bed all night. I had several people assure me that he would not sleep with us forever and some nights I miss those nights of cuddling with my little guy. Samuel has been a joy since day one and I could not be more proud of the boy he has become. He has a special heart and I cannot imagine loving another little boy more than I love Sam. For his Gotcha Day he wanted a huge pancake for breakfast and then he wanted Chick-Fil-A for lunch. The rest of today was spent resting and unpacking from Vegas.
We got back from our trip around 4:00 yesterday afternoon. Despite my hesitations about the trip, it was a great few days. We got to Vegas around 10:00 (Midnight our time) Sunday night so we were pretty tired. Our day started Monday morning and was packed with various sessions until 8:00 that night. It was a very encouraging few days and I found it amazing that several sessions (all small group or individual) focused on all the insecurity stuff that I shared a few days before we left. We do not know if we "passed" their assessment and we will not find out for a few weeks. Tuesday was another packed day full of sessions but it ended around 4:00. We planned to go down to the Strip, but we were exhausted and we were not sure how we were going to get down there and back and we had to leave at 6:00 the next morning for our flight. So, we just stayed in and rested.
We still have no word on the house. It seems every one wants us to give the house away. Those interested want us to pay for every thing and that is not going to happen. Well, here are a few pictures from today. Oh, I forgot to mention that Emma lost another tooth on Saturday night. It is actually the first one that we had to pull. It has been hanging for weeks, but she would not let us pull it. She was screaming and biting us! Finally Saturday night I had enough and pulled it out and you would of thought that I was killing her! After I pulled it and she calmed down she says. "Mommy, I do not want to lose any more teeth!" I hated to break it to her that she has A LOT more teeth to lose:)
All of you have changed our lives forever! God has blessed us exceedingly and abundantly above that we all asked in giving us these blessings, Samuel,Emma and Cloe. He knew you you were the best parents for them. He will provide again and again. Love and prayers
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